Friday Confessional

What the....its already Friday!?!?! Seriously times goes way too fast. At least Friday means that the weekend has finally arrived. WAHOOOOOOOO!

I Confess:

• I am typing my confessional at work...again.
• I woke up with this wicked headache today and took 2 Excedrin, 4 Advil, and 32 oz of Dt. Coke.
• I still have my headache....I need sleep....which will not be available until 7:30am. BOOO!
• I have not been very productive this week.
• I am still on my reading binge.
• I really need a vacation and I am pretty sure I am getting burnt out of work.
• When I first got my RN I worked 5 twelve hour shifts a week....
• Now every day before work, I say, " I don't want to go" (pouty face)
• When I have to work my 2 shifts in a row I get totally bummed out.
• I use to work 5 in a row.
• I think I am getting old.
• I feel old.
• I use to like to work because my money went to fun stuff and cool travels.
• Now all my money goes to LAME-O bills.
• I hate bills.
• Bill's make me feel old.
• I love vampire books.
• I hate the twilight movies...and the books are entertaining but totally OVERRATED.
• I am super RANDOM tonight.
• I am totally sleep deprived.
• I love Friday confessional.

Sleeping Beauty

This afternoon a few of my friends and I had a girls afternoon out. We had a tasty lunch at the OG (Olive Garden) and then went to the Ballet. 

I love the ballet SO MUCH! I always wanted to be a ballerina...I still kind of do...

We saw Sleeping Beauty and it was FANTASTIC!!! It was so good! It was totally not the Disney version but excellent none the less.

The music was wonderful, of course, and the dancers were spectacular.

I can't wait for the next one!!! I might make this a regular thing. =)

Friday Confessional

Here we are again! I confess: 

• I have become completely obsessed with the Sookie Stackhouse Series. 
• As a matter of fact, I have read 5 of the 11 books...this week....I read fast. 
• The last time I was this hooked it was the Stephanie Plum series by Janet Evonovitch. Those books are HILARIOUS!
• When I get hooked on a book I cant stop until it's done. 
• Jeff and I were watching a movie (A TOTAL GUY MOVIE BTW)...he turned his head and caught me reading.... woopsie. 
• The other night we went to bed...I turned the light back on so I could finish my book...
• The other day, on the way home from work, I pulled my book out at stop lights....
• Have I already mentioned that I am sort of obsessed? 
• I think I have been so into the books because they are better than doing housework. 
• I can be lazy and procrastinate as much as the next person.
• Although, it really bothers me to have a messy house. 
• Reading makes me forget about my messy house...and since I am super sick of cleaning the toilets and  always doing the laundry, and doing the freaken dishes and sweeping the stupid floor....I read.
• Reading is a way I can TRULY get away for awhile.

VALENTINES

So, I have never been really into Valentine's Day. Maybe it's because I rarely had a boy friend on Valentine's...mostly I see it as another excuse  to spend money on others and go out to dinner. Hey, whatever gets you out I guess. ;-)

Well, this year I totally slacked off and literally the night before at work I was like, "Oh, crap I haven't even gotten Jeff a card!" So, right before I headed home from work I had a moment of genius inspiration.... CANDY GRAM! Hello! I hadn't made one of these since I was in high school. It was super fun and I must say, Jeff felt very special. 

We also celebrated Valentine's day by going out to Outback Steakhouse with my Bro and SIL. LOVE THEM!

Oh and the Ahi Tuna was FANTASTIC!!!

HAPPY (late) VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!!!!

Tinting Tuesday--Living in Color

FUCHSIA!

In a tribute to Valentines week I am going to do a post on the fantastic color FUCHSIA! 

This color is such a great accent color to a home or an outfit. LOVE IT!

Here are some of my Fuschia picks: 

I love orchids and they come in this amazing color. This was an orchid I have but you can find a similar artificial one here.  They can be pretty temperamental so I believe my next one will be artificial.

Could fuchsia be the NEW red when it comes to sassy heels? Um...I think these are FIERCE! Buy them here.

I love that even though this has just a bit of fuchsia it still pops. source

I also love this larger display of the color. source

Adorable magnets. source

And last, I really love these napkins. As a matter of fact, I think they would go great with my olive plates... source

Such a fantastic color! I think it is awesome in small doses and I think it is also super duper awesome in big doses.

Friday Confessional

Oh Friday how I, sometimes, love you. I love you because I get to do Friday confessional but I don't love you because I pretty much always work Friday night. Working Friday night means I lose my Friday and most of my Saturday. LAME-O! Someday I will have enough seniority to never work a weekend again. That would be awesome! Any way, lets get back to the task at hand.

I Confess:

• Jeff and I pretty much only use our dining table when we have guests.
• That's right, we basically eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner in the love sac.
• Our table has turned into a catch-all for mail, crafts, notes, loose change, purse/wallets, and basically anything that really should be up in the office.
• I have recently re-discovered my like of smutty vampire/romance books. Don't get me wrong, I also love the classics (i.e. Jane Eyre, Persuasions, Sherlock Holmes, Charles Dickens, etc) BUT every once in a while you need brainless reading.
• The past few days I have had this wicked sore throat...which I have ignored because it is caused by sinus issues. Any way, I considered calling in sick tonight and didn't. Bad choice.
• I hate sore throats but I like eating crackers when I have one. I like how it kind of scratches your throat on the way down... Sorry if that freaks you out. It seems to make other food and beverages go down easier...you should try it.

and last

• Most of the time when my husband starts talking about computers or work I totally zone out. He has caught me several times "pretending" to listen.... Woopsie.

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Here I am last year...

This was taken pretty close to one year ago. Now, I had pictures that were exactly a year ago but they had other people in them.... So, sorry if you have seen this one before. ;-)


Here I am today...

How have I changed? Oh let me count the ways. I still have brown hair and green eyes, but I definitely don't feel like the same person. I can't say that all the changes have been positive but I try to make the most of them. Aside from the obvious physical changes that have occurred, there have definitely been some mental, emotional and spiritual changes also.  


A lot of the changes have been due to the wonderful MS. My memory is shot, I get hot flashes or nauseous when too fatigued, and I get random sharp pains everywhere. I try to joke about the MS and if my brother or husband are teasing me about something I tell them that I can't help it because I have MS. Tee hee  hee. Hey, if you are going to have a debilitating disease you might as well make the most of it...right?

I seem to be a lot more pessimistic now than I was a year ago. After having pink eye consistently for 4 months, positional vertigo for 2 weeks, double vision for 2 months, MS for life, and chronic UTI's, I kind of live my life expecting the next bad thing to happen. I honestly am afraid of what terrors lie ahead of me and my husband. I guess, after getting diagnosed with MS I finally came to the realization that bad stuff happens to everyone. That God was not going to keep illnesses or disease from me. That all the other things that I considered big trials were just the beginning. I now personally know that I am NOT IMMUNE to major life altering things. 

So,  I  may be a bit more paranoid about what the future might bring, but I have discovered that I am BRAVER THAN I THOUGHT. A year ago I had a conversation with Jeff about his trial of being deathly ill with Crohns. He has suffered a lot of pain, fear, anger, and 2 major surgeries. He has been through hell. I remember telling him that I could never be as strong as him because I could never handle having a trial like that. I would never survive having a disease or being so sick. Well, LOOK AT ME NOW. I may not have had surgery, but I have been really sick, I have experienced the horrors of IV steroids, I have experienced the sensation of doom that is brought on when you are told you have an incurable disease, and I'M STILL ALIVE! I lived through the hardest year of my life!!!! I'm still here. I still have a husband. (He is a strong man.) I still wake up everyday, albeit around 1pm, but I still get up AND I put makeup on. I am moving forward!

I have also found that I no longer care about going out of my way to surround myself with people that really don't care about me. I am perfectly content with my small handful of  good friends. For the record, one of them is my husband and I can count the rest of them on less than one hand...;-)


I obviously feel a lot different physically but I also have had to restart spiritually. Last year really did damage to my foundation and my trust in the big picture. I wish I could say that the whole time my world was falling apart I knew Heavenly Father loved me, but I can't. For the past year I have been relying on my husband's testimony that my worth is great in the site of God.  I have felt totally abandoned spiritually. That has been THE HARDEST part to this entire trial. I could go on and on about this, but just know your foundation can never be TOO strong. I thought I was a strong person spiritually, but I now know I was weak. So, my foundation may have pretty much crumbled, but I still own the plot of land and, with the help of my husband, I am rebuilding.

I am slowly building myself back up, but I have taken a hit to all aspects of my being. I don't know that I will even discover the new me until a ways down the road.  However, the current major storm has passed and now it is calm. I plan on taking this year to truly work on finding out who I am NOW.   On overcoming my new paranoia, strengthening my relationships and friendships, and loving the life I have.

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Over a month ago, I felt the need to blog but wasn't sure what to write about. My SIL had been doing this 30 day challenge and suggested that I also do the challenge. 

My super cute SIL Amber...

I decided this challenge could be a good way to start the year and get the juices flowing. I must say that I have not loved all of the topics, but is has given me blog ideas for the future. It has also given me a sense of accomplishment because it is one goal for this year that I have stuck with and almost completed. Yay!

Friday Confessional

I confess:

• I kind of, sort of, really, just maybe a smidge, secretly want to see the movie Burlesque. YIKES! I said kinda! (Blushing) Oh boy, I feel so ashamed.
• If I am getting something from the vending machine at work, my go-to item is a package of Hostess Zingers. Could I pick something more awful for me? Honestly!
• When I have down time at work, I plan the vacations I dream about going on.
• I start to really regret my mortgage right about then.
• Every once in awhile I consider charging a vacation to the AMEX....But then I think about how long it would take to pay off 6 grand plus interest...(DOUBLE SIGH)
• I am already regretting getting up at 8:30 this morning...and its only 10!
• Half the time we visit my parents just so we don't have to cook dinner.
• I tend to start a million projects at once and then take forever finishing any of them. 
• I have become addicted to 'do-it-yourself' TV.

AND

• I am obsessed with shows that are about finding old homes and renovating them to their original glory.

 Now, on another note...

Day 26- What you think about your friends?

Ah, my friends. What to say, what to say. How about...I LOVE THEM! 

They have been there for me, lifting me up during all of my trials. They listen when I need to vent and give advice when I ask for it. They are there to go shopping with me or bring me dinner after medical procedures. They also are really good about bringing me chocolate when I am down.

I have been very lucky and blessed with good friends. I am truly grateful for this. 

Thank you all for being there for me when I have needed you most! I heart your faces!

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Oh, wouldn't you like to know!? ;-)

I would like to say that I keep it down to the necessities...but I have found that the bigger my bag the more I put into it.

Obviously, I have my wallet, phone, planner, sunglasses, and name badge. I like to keep a file and tweezers also because I always seem to chip my nails and I swear I see all my stray eyebrow hairs when I'm in the car. I highly recommend tweezers. All the natural light really highlights all the missed hairs.
So, I think that my purse isn't that scary...the bag I take to work on the other hand...Bloodcurdling. Luckily it didn't specify which bag to blog on. HA! =)